You seem like a smart, funny, and charming lady on the internet, so I have no doubt those qualities are evident in real life too. Evidence that my NuvaRing hormones are making me crazy: someone said this to me after I turned a Hairpin thread into my own private foreveralone therapy session and I teared up.
Something funny happens to people who are lonely. The lonelier they get, the less adept they become at navigating social currents. Loneliness grows around them, like mold or fur, a prophylactic that inhibits contact, no matter how badly contact is desired. Loneliness is accretive, extending and perpetuating itself. Once it becomes impacted, it isn’t easy to dislodge. When I think of its advance, an anchoress’s cell comes to mind, as does the exoskeleton of a gastropod.
Me, myself and I, Olivia Laing